I am trying to grabble with the thought that I may not find a mate for time and all eternity because I might not have enough time on this earth to find one!!! Besides it isn't exactly the highest of my priorities at the moment! Chemo, eating right, loving my kids, getting the divorce papers finalized from signed and in proper order from idiot are my priories!
My best friend and I giggled during the lesson as we considered all of the irony of this and realized the fact that if I actually do find a new "husband" for lack of a better word, it will be an "up-grade" at this point from what I am currently having to deal with in terms of support. All in all in was no the emotional spiritual experience I was hoping for by going to church but still gave me hope and food for thought and if anything direction. I must still persevere for the sake of my kids who by the way i must pick up in an hour!
Tomorrow I have yet another chemo treatment. I am in a mad scramble to make arrangements for people to take responsibility for my kids while I am hooked up to an IV for nearly five hours. The coordination of the children sometimes is more stressful than the treatment itself.
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:) I appreciate your honesty, Dana. It is so hard sometimes for people to see things from other's perspectives - e.g. someone being happily married also being able to understand what it would be like to not be in that same situation.
ReplyDeleteI guess it's like someone once said, "People don't see the world as it is, but as they are."
I guess all we can do is to try to make sure we remain unjaded on one hand, and on the other, try to keep our eye glasses from becoming too "rose colored". :)
You're a beautiful and honest person. I have no doubt in my mind that God has wonderful things in store for you.
Thanks for your post, by the way.